Friday, December 31, 2010
So on to this years promise to myself....Like i did with quitting smoking, i have been researching and gearing up for making yet another effort at losing all of this extra weight..45 pounds from the last two babies and then another 40 from quitting smoking~! this time though, i am coming with a new approach. Rather than feeling bad and berating myself over it all, I joined an online inspiration site called Inner Weight Loss...and through the lessons that I downloaded and through daily inspirational messages, i am learning to be kind to myself...to treat my poor self with more love and am trying to separate my feelings of self worth from my actual physical size and shape..for me a very hard thing to do. I realized something just today...that I quit smoking as a kindness to myself. I didn't want to die from it, i was tired of trying to hide just to get a quick hit, always planning the next cigarette, getting nervous if it wasn't happening. Not to mention the stink. I researched for several months before hand on the best ways to quit and found the perfect method for myself..i wish i could find the website to share...it had the best advise! Once i came to the decision to really finally do it...that is exactly what i did..no looking back~! However, i unknowingly (at the time)traded one vice for another...my wine..and when i broke out in hives a couple of years ago, my cocktails which wield even higher calories!
So here i am...i finally have convinced myself that these cocktails that i find sooo tasty can be put on hold for a few short months until my behind shrinks back into a more acceptable size. I love myself. I love how I look and feel when i can fit into my 6's and 8's, I love how my body can move effortlessly carrying only 140 lbs instead of 85 more than that...i am sure my knees and feet will like it much better too! So out of love for myself..and my desire to once again feel good about how I look, i am embarking on this journey of shedding pounds once again~! I just started reading a book called " A Course in Weight loss" Well, i read lesson one...and realized that just maybe the adage of excess weight being a protective devise is probably true...when i read through this exercise i recognized many issues that i have hidden deep within...so I am seeing this as a journey not only as physical weight loss but also emotional baggage weightloss....so here is to a New Year and to taking care of me..inside and out....and most of all treating my self with love! I deserve it...i take care of my family, my hubby my 6 kids...now it is my turn....and I know if I am the best i can be..i will also be the best mom to the kids and lover to my man!
So a profound moment..a bit more serious than I intended..but i am actually looking forward to this journey of self love and self improvement...Happy new Year to every one that reads this..and those who don't...God Bless and have a wonderful wonderful New Year
Lesson One....from my Inner Weight Loss; surround yourself with visions of what you want to be....Here is mine:I was 28 in this picture...probably a mere 128 pounds maybe even less. I don't really want to be this tiny....but this sweet girl is still in here....waiting for herself to love herself...but look..here I am at 45..a bit round but still worthy of love..silly woman! let's do this for Us...me myself and I!
and here is my official starting weight picture..i have to stop myself from looking at it and going bleh....all of me at 225 pounds...yup I am going to tell you....225 pounds of lovable me...so now...it is time to get it back into smaller jeans. I am happy to report though after 48 hours of Medical Weight Loss program..i am already almost 5 pounds closer....yay for getting a head start on my New Years resolution!
I have read many weight loss blogs and have found shared journey's to be inspiring and so helpful! To know i am not alone in this sort of battle is comforting..so maybe, just maybe one person might find my sharing helpful as well!
Namaste and Happy New Year to all of my beautiful friends out there!
Monday, December 6, 2010
thank you all for your lovely pages! I will enjoy our calendar all year!
January 2011 calendar page for you to download and enjoy
Originally uploaded by gemini angel's art and dolls
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Back tracking a couple of weeks ..our newest addition to the family..our baby girl pug: Emmie!
the light of my life..well another light added..all of my children, my hubby and my other pug Oscar are lights too! She sure is a funny girl and quite different than Oscar. She is more aggresive and playful yet sweet too~! She loves her mamma and has made it known her favorite sleeping spot is on my neck! haha! This was taken a couple of weeks ago and i promised to take some more today! I am sure she is even bigger yet...
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
well i have one more set to come up with this week...an get the fire going under my stragglers butts to get theirs done too..haha
well smooches for now!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
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Sunday, February 28, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
I originally wanted to use a broken pocket watch given to me by my father and after several failed starts, changed direction a bit. I broke the opening mechanism and lost patience with trying to figure out how to repair it or make a new doo- hickey to open the door. So i abanadoned that and started looking around in my supplies. I came across the box with my tins and found this wonderful mint tin. It is about 2 1/4-1/2" tall or a bit more, the perfect size!! I used my Dremel and sanded off the words..as I was sanding I discovered that it made this really cool texture on the raised leaves..so instead of sanding all of the color off, I left it rough..then drilled holes to add the parts: a knocker, Tim Holtz gears, an old watch face and victorian wings and fan. I primarily used brads to attach the pieces with a bit of E6000 to anchor parts...so it is now ready for the round...despite the rocky start I am thrilled with my piece! The hardest part was stopping and leaving room for more additions..haha The inside is also posted on my flickr...additions can be made to the outside and/or inside of the piece!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I have to admit the best part about having a doll hobby is creating all of the tiny creatures and accessories and scenes for them! I had always said i wanted to work with miniatures and doll houses once the kids were old enough to leave stuff alone..i never realized how much fun it would be once i finally got to do it...Definitely worth the wait...and i am just getting warmed up! haha! I have lots of projects and scenes planned for this year! If you are interested there are a ton more photos on my flickr site...so please visit!